While I really wish i could say I quit, the struggle is still there. I went back to college and everything hit the fan, became stressed out and got worse. I’m hoping someone can sympathize with the on-going struggle.
In the mean time i’m going to try to figure out how to make a forum so all the smokers and non smokers can talk. I’m wishing everyone out there luck! I’ll get there eventually!
Ive learned how to graph in word press through databases, so i will be graphing my smoking progress 🙂 And publishing it here
Despite the stress, ive only had 3 cigarettes, which is unheard of after a day like ive had! Every time i turn around i was being slapped in the face with more stress, more anxiety. Just more more more! The day is half way done, and im hoping to stick with that number for today. I really dont want nor need anymore than that.
Here we go, another day with the end in mind of not smoking at all! Ive had my morning cigarette, so im praying that’s it!! I want a smoke free day otherwise I know i can do it, I know i can! Going to keep my mind and body busy like i did yesterday, and just rest my faith in God. Everyone pray for me, i know this is the beginning of the end, i can just feel it!
Look around on the site, last night i added some goodies. Ads to support the site (fun i know, click out of them if they are in the way), games, some spring leaves and other surprises! Im also helping Chase build his own site. This shall be fun. Something for Mother and Son to do, and again keep my mind going!
I love you all, and will let you know how it goes tonight!
The day isnt over, but i can already tell i didnt do nearly as well as yesterday, but alot better than last weekend. Its an ongoing fight that im getting very very tired of fighting. I wish i could just skip to the end. Too bad it cant just be that simple… Like my theory of sleeping through it. No one can sleep that much! If so, people would hardly exist. Well, thats the progress for the day as it nears bedtime. We shall see how tomorrow ends up!
Lets see what you shall bring me today! I already know im going to have a sick lil girl home. That and a puzzle shall do to keep me smoke free i hope!
Its been a looooong day, starting with the dentist, therapy in between and a sick little girl at the end. Ive smoked a TON less than the last few days, 3 cigarettes, and id have to say that’s an accomplishment! Ill soon be back down to my one, then none! I cant wait to be a non-smoker, maybe i wont need as many meds then. I lost my last stitch too, so it doesnt feel like i have rubber bands in my mouth anymore. Other than poor mel being sick, its been a great day!